Monday, August 1, 2016

Immortals

Book I of 'The Domus' Series'

Chapter One
Jai and Juliet
Mumbai–Pune Expressway, India
8 May, 2012

Jai cried out in anguish as he felt the bullet from the ‘Abdi nightmare’ smash into his guts. Jai had been having these nightmares ever since he had been aware of his dreams. In his dreams, he had always been this Somali Jihadi warrior. He had failed to understand why he relentlessly dreamt about being a habshi Jihadi warrior who fought his wars valiantly and had died in numerous different ways in each of his nightmares. Some days it would be a bomb that ripped him into a hundred tiny shreds and on others it would be a bayonet that sank into the Jihadi’s heart, but on most of the occasions it would be a bullet smashing into him on a faraway battlefront.
He had seen scores of ‘Abdi deaths’ in his dreams and Abdi had come back from each of his deaths, stronger and ready to kill more ‘infidels’. Abdi had thus grown from being a new recruit of ‘Allah’s Army’ to being a feared commander of the Islamic Jihad in Somalia.
These nightmares were always vivid accounts of the war in Somalia and it perplexed Jai, as he had never ever been to high school to see Somalia mentioned in some obscure chapter of a social sciences book and yet all he dreamt about was being a Somali warrior.
He had talked about his dreams with his sister when she was alive and she had understood what they were.
‘They are images of your previous life.’ She had the simple explanation of an eleven year old and that was all there was to it. Jai had only been thirteen then and he had had a very difficult day at the orphanage and a terrible Somali nightmare in the night and then, in spite of his reserved nature, he had talked about his dreams for the first time with Ayesha.
But today, Jai wasn’t on a Somali battlefield and it wasn’t a bullet that had really hit his belly. It had been the point of a boot that had been shoved into his battered guts right about the time when the bullet had shoved into Abdi’s guts in Jai’s semi-awake, semi-conscious nightmare.
That boot-kick had brought Jai back to his full waking senses.
It was almost evening on a totally fucked bad-ass Sunday. Ali and his goons had found Jai in the godown owned by Salim ‘Capital’. There had been a bloody shootout in that godown only a couple of hours ago and Salim and seven of his cronies had been gunned down in the ambush.
Jai, seventeen years of age, was gagged, bound, and beaten up and now he lay curled in a foetal position on the floor of a Chevrolet Tavera that was hurtling down the Mumbai–Pune expressway. Jai knew he was being led to slaughter. The only reason they had not pumped a bullet into his head was that a more gruesome death awaited him.
There were four of them in the Tavera, which was running along the road, out of Mumbai, leaving the skyline, leaving the slums, and then out into the fresh air of the highway. It was dusk and the orange light of the evening sun filtered through the tinted windows to a play of shadows on the seats of the speeding SUV.
He was the prize catch of the melée that had ensued since the day before and he was being led to Rashique Bhai’s den as a trophy catch where Bhai was going to have his share of ‘fun’ with him before killing him in any one of his grisly ways of meting out justice to those who betrayed the gang.
Jai’s would be an ‘example’ killing; an example to others in the gang, a deterrent against future betrayals.
Traitor Jai was.
Traitor he had been branded.
And as traitor he had been caught.
That seriously limited the number of days to his life and put an immediate and imminent threat to the integrity of his limbs. His seventeen-year-old body was badly bruised; his face lacerated in at least two places that might leave a scar in the unlikely event that he lived through tonight. His handsome teenage face had lost both the front upper incisors and he had a terrible pain in his groin after having been booted mercilessly in his belly and crotch.
He didn’t know about it yet, but there was a slow but steady trickle of blood inside his abdomen from a small avulsive tear in the right lobe of his liver.
Tears mixed with blood from a cut on his left eyelid rolled onto his cheeks, preventing the blood from clotting and drying up on his face.
‘Son of a bitch!’ Ali Asgar hissed as he ploughed the butt of his revolver into Jai’s face. Jatin and Lalit were sitting in the front seats and Jatin was driving the car.
Lalit looked over to the back and sniggered
‘The bugger was acting very smart. Now he’ll know what it costs to cross Rashique Bhai.’
Jatin looked back and added,
‘This bastard is only a kid, for fuck’s sake, and look at his guts. He has the guts to think of doing a number on Bhai and getting away with it. Even that bitch Juliet is involved in the act. After all, how did Rajan’s shooters know that Bhai would be at her apartment yesterday night?’
Ali whacked Jatin’s head lightly with the revolver butt from behind.
Saale, keep your eyes on the road. Anything happens to my Tavera, I will have you piss out ten petis from your baburao.
Lalit laughed out loud.
‘But this Tavera is not worth ten petis, Ali Bhai.
‘Well, my emotional bonding with it has to count for something extra, shouldn’t it?’ Ali chuckled.
Ali liked being called Bhai.
The banter died down and the Tavera rolled on the wide expressway towards Pune. The Tavera was on its way to a farmhouse in Shirgaon, on the outskirts of Pune on the Mumbai–Pune expressway where Rashique Bhai and gang had taken refuge, after the botched attempt on Bhai’s life at Juliet’s apartment in Vashi the day before.
Retribution had been swift and they had succeeded in gunning down Salim ‘Capital’, the key aide and head of Navi-Mumbai operations for Rajan Bhai. It was pretty darned clear that it had to be the job of an insider mole who had tipped the shooters of the Rajan gang. The hunt for the insider had begun on the same night.
Jai and Juliet had absconded the next day.
They had traced Jai to Salim’s godown in Wadala. They had staked out and marked the joint and had taken down his gang in a bloody ambush of Salim Bhai’s party as it was entering the godown. A hand grenade had made instant hash of the front car, a dowdy Innova, and had stopped the Camry and the two Ambys behind, dead in their tracks. There had been a barrage of bullets from three sides and Salim and his goons were dead before they even realised what had hit them.
Ali and his troupe had waited for more than three-quarters of an hour after the last gunshot had been fired, before entering the godown. And when they were sure that there was no-one else to fight, they had forced their way into the godown.
The police had already been informed and paid off and they had been asked to reach the site after an hour of their receiving the first call about the shootout. There was an absolute, eerie silence with the four vehicles and a score of dead people in them lying on the road outside the godown, as Ali and his goons had kept watch for about an hour, covering all the exits. The scant public that was present before the shootout had disappeared into their holes after the report of the first gunshot was heard, in an area now all too familiar with the noise of guns and bombs. All that remained was the stench of death and gunpowder, which hung in the air about Ali and his waiting men.
When Ali was sure that there wasn’t any sniper attack forthcoming, he had two of his boys force the rear gate and had snuck into the godown; they had done a quick search inside and had then led the rest of his gang inside. Ali had found Jai hunkered in the basement and all he had by way of defence was an empty revolver, which he had thrown at them in desperation as soon as they had entered the basement.
It was, overall, a job well done apprehending Jai, although there was still not a trace of Juliet.
Juliet had sneaked out of the house, in barely her undergarments, after probably letting in Rajan’s shooters, just about in time for the fireworks. She had left a naked Rashique Bhai on her bed to die in a ballistic hail.
It was Rashique Bhai’s ageing prostate that had saved his life. Bhai was pushing fifty and had trouble keeping his bladder in check during the night. And a trip to the toilet barely seconds after Juliet had left the bed, and seconds before the shooters sneaked into the bedroom, had saved Bhai’s life.
Ali took this as a lesson for himself.
One should never trust a hooker with one’s life, no matter how long you have been fornicating with her.
Juliet had been Bhai’s property for the last three years. She had been brought ‘fresh’ from Kolkata as a gift for Bhai’s completing thirty years of his Mumbai operations. Bhai had given her much more than what a whore like her deserved. Hell, she had her own apartment, a swish car, and Bhai had even given her enough freedom to go out with some of her friends, every now and then. She had the life of a princess and yet the bitch had betrayed Bhai.
She too had been ‘turned’ by the Rajan gang for this operation and she would have to pay; pay dearly, when she was caught.
And Ali hoped that it would be sooner rather than later.
Ali had left a ‘watcher’ at her apartment and two at a friend’s house in Currimbhoy’s chawl in Byculla. They were keeping a ‘24 x 7’ watch and would report to Ali as soon as she materialised at any of these places. Ali had been organising affairs for Rashique Bhai and had risen up the ranks of the gang in south Mumbai. South Mumbai was where the crème de la crème of Mumbai lived. The gang needed a presence down here, although they liked to keep it quiet. Ali understood that it needed subtlety and diplomacy to run a quiet operation.
He knew Rashique had shown immense trust in him by handing him this area’s responsibility. He took pride in solving problems for Bhai independently and he was one of the brazen younger ‘lieutenants’ of the Rashique gang, though not the youngest.
Yet this business of an attack at Rashique Bhai’s life had to dent his reputation. After all, this shit happened in his own backyard. It hurt Ali’s reputation that it was his recruit that had gone sour and knew that this act of Jai’s betrayal would cost him at least a couple of years of favour with Rashique Bhai.
Ali dearly hoped that his eliminating Salim and the swift capture of Jai would prevent the shit from hitting the fan.
He was ambitious and yet knew he had to be a loyal vassal to Bhai till his time came. He looked around at the occupants of the Tavera – Jatin, seventeen years of age, from Bhagalpur, and Lalit, a sharpshooter, nineteen years of age, from Moradabad. He had picked them up from the proverbial Mumbai gutter and had apprenticed and inducted them into the gang.
He knew, rather hoped, that these two were loyal to him before their loyalty to Rashique Bhai, and that they would lay their lives on the line fighting for him if the Tavera were to be ambushed now.
Jai was a different story. Ali had been a mentor to him but he had never owned Jai. Jai had respect for him but Ali had suspected that Jai could never be loyal to anyone but himself. Jai had never shown fear of any kind. In fact his emotions had always been blunted and that had scared even Ali sometimes. Jai had taken to being a shooter well and had killed his targets without showing any kind of remorse, ever.
Ali had met him at the ‘Adarsh’ juvenile home in Vikhroli two years ago where Jai was incarcerated for aggravated assault and killing under blind rage, charges that stopped just short of murder. Jai was dexterous with his smuggled kolhapuri knife and Ali had been impressed. Ali had befriended Jai there and had later recruited him into the gang. Jai had graduated effortlessly from the kolhapuri to a local ghoda and then on to an imported revolver, a gift from Ali on his sixteenth birthday. Jai had risen rapidly amongst the ranks, from a carrier boy to a shooter in two years. He had accompanied Ali on his ‘kill’ runs and Ali had let him finish some of his targets. Ali had entrusted Jai with three other successful ‘solo’ jobs after that.
Ali couldn’t still believe that it had been Jai. He couldn’t comprehend the reasons for Jai’s betrayal.
There was a pungent stench of urine, which brought Ali back from his reverie. He cursed.
‘Jatin, saale! Roll down the windows. This motherfucker has pissed in his sorry pants. Bastard!’
The window panes were lowered and the odour wafted outside with fresh air blowing in from the low hills through which the highway cut across towards Pune.
 ‘Abey beedichaaps! You want cigarettes?’ Ali hollered from the front seat and offered them a Wills each. The boys had done well today and deserved more than just a cig. As far as he knew, both of them had a healthy sexual appetite and he planned to set them up with some fancy bitch in a couple of days.
A good general should keep his men disciplined, marshalled, well fed, well paid, and well fucked.
Ali never smoked or had alcohol himself. He believed every man was entitled to only a single vice and that any more would do him no good. His vice involved the carnal pleasures and he had promised himself that he would stop at just that.
Not many around him, however, subscribed to his idea about a single vice.
Soon the two of them in the front seat had a burning cig at their lips and Ali, all of twenty-three, was again lost in his thoughts.
Ali had a chhamiya already, a girl that he liked to think he was going steady with. A high-profile Queen’s College chick, who did ‘private’ work sometimes, as an escort, for the extra cash, and had a soft corner for Ali. He hoped to have an audience with her in a couple of days, if Jai’s business wrapped itself early.
***
The Tavera rolled into the farmhouse by around midnight. It had been close to thirty hours since Jai had had more than a semi-conscious semblance of a sleep. Moreover, that too had been wasted on the great Jihadi, Abdi. He had been intermittently butt-whipped and gut-kicked all the while that he had been in the Tavera.
They had stopped for a cup of tea and some cigarettes in between. Ali had denied Jai even water at the teashop. The roadside shop owner had had a glimpse of Jai, bound, gagged, and bleeding on the floor of the truck. Their eyes had momentarily met when the Tavera doors had opened but the shop-owner knew better than to meddle in the matters of three menacing young men coming out of a shiny Tavera in the dead of night with a bound captive with them.
Saala will not see tomorrow’s sun. No need to waste tea on this bastard,’ Ali had told the other boys.
Jai was taken straight to the barn of the farmhouse. He lay there in a heap till Rashique Bhai made his entry into the barn an hour later. Rashique Bhai was lean and lanky with an ominous-looking cropped beard on his square jaws. The muscles on his neck and arms bore testimony to his gym routine. He looked much fitter than his fifty years. He wore a pathan suit with its sleeves rolled up high and sat down on a torn sofa in the barn of the farmhouse, flanked by four armed men.
The farmhouse belonged to Subhash Shinde, the local MLA who had employed the services of Rashique Bhai’s muscle to handle his electioneering and campaigns in the past. Rashique Bhai used the farmhouse as and when he pleased.
Today he was celebrating yet another unsuccessful attempt on his life and had a mini-army of his trusted lieutenants by his side.
It was deemed unsafe by Hazari Baba for him to stay in Mumbai after the attack. He always listened to Baba who had been Bhai’s mentor, philosopher, and guide for many years. People whispered of a blood relationship between the two.
There were rumours that Rashique Bhai was actually the bastard son of Baba with the two-timing wife of a film producer. The producer had abandoned Bhai in Baba’s care after having his wife murdered for her deception. Baba had secured the safety of his son on the promise of not hurting or having anything to do with the producer’s family after he got custody of his son.
Bhai knew about his connection with Baba and yet he kept up the pretence and they never acknowledged each other as father and son; at least not in front of others.
Bhai had been told everything by Baba on his twentieth birthday. He had argued that he was not bound by the promise that Baba had made to the producer and Hazari Baba had relented at last.
Bhai had then very brazenly gone on to cleanse the producer’s extended family off the face of the earth in one of the most audacious attacks on Bollywood by the underworld.
Bhai had flushed into the ground the producer, his latest trophy wife, his three ex-wives, and his four sons and three daughters, and their families, taking the toll to twenty-one in a bloody soliloquy of revenge.
A stirring in the almost lifeless body of Jai, slumped on the floor in front of him, brought Bhai back from his thoughts.
The farmhouse reeked of tandoori chicken, booze, and cheap whores.
Things were to get messy with Jai, and Rashique Bhai wanted to finish off with this traitor in the barn. A Bollywood starlet and three teen nymphets and wannabe starlets from the ‘Dance India’ troupe were giving him company today and he was a trifle impatient to get back to them. But they would have to wait. Rashique Bhai knew that he had to make an example of Jai, as a deterrent against any repeat attempt at a similar betrayal in the future.
Jai lay hunched on his side on the ground facing Bhai on the couch, his hands tied behind his back. The tears had long dried up and the wounds had run out of blood. The ground was littered with hay and horse-shit that made Jai choke into coughing spasms every now and then. Sacks of feed were stored on one side of the barn and Ali watched the proceedings, slumped on a sack in the corner in the dark.
‘What should I do with you, chotu?’ Bhai asked. His voice had a tone of condescending exasperation.
Jai looked up but kept silent.
Jai wanted the ‘killing’ to get over soon. No, he was not in any tearing hurry to get anywhere; just that quick dead would be easy dead.
Jai had indeed planned the entire ‘operation’ well. He had already been paid half his remuneration, which was tucked away somewhere safe. The plan was for Bhai’s murder to get over smoothly and for him to vanish with Juliet. He had two unreserved tickets to Dehradun for that night’s train. They could then just disappear into the hills, far away from Mumbai.
Jai realised now that he was not going to make that train ride.
His only mistake had been to surrender his safety in Salim Bhai’s hands. He had put his trust in Salim Bhai and things had soured fast. Rashique Bhai had escaped the killing, marshalled his forces, extracted a swift retribution, and had his hands on him, all in just about a day’s work. Juliet was missing and he had no news of her.
Little did Jai know that Juliet was being held captive in the garage of the farmhouse, just a hundred metres from where he was, where she was being punished for her role in the attempted killing of Bhai. Bhai had ordered that she be treated like the whore that she was, and she had had a steady stream of Bhai’s men visiting her since that evening. She lay tied to the bed-post of a cot in the watchman’s room by the garage, barely conscious and bleeding from her ravaged privates.
Rashique Bhai got down to the business of Jai’s betrayal. He had his finest cutlery laid out on the table in front of him.
He was going to make this extra special for Jai.
Not only had Jai betrayed him to his enemies, he had been two-timing with Juliet. This had come as a real shock to him, and it was a huge embarrassment for him in front of his minions.
An SMS message had been found in the sent folder of Juliet’s cell phone telling Jai that the ‘work’ was done, and that she would be at the railway station at the designated time.
Rashique Bhai motioned to two of his men who approached Jai, turned him prone on an upturned cart, and divested him of his clothes…
***
Two hours later Jai was left with belt welts all over his body, a broken tailbone, three amputated toes, a displaced hip joint, and a broken nasal cartilage. He was barely conscious, and only a guttural howl emanated from his throat each time his bodily integrity was violated.
Before the torture had started, Bhai had whispered in Jai’s ears
‘I know all about you and Juliet and believe me – right now you are having a better time than she is.’ Jai had recoiled with anger and despair and Bhai had enjoyed the impotent rage of Jai.
The end came soon afterwards in the form of a Swiss army knife that Rashique pushed through Jai, between the fourth and fifth ribs in the left of his chest. The blade rapidly exsanguinated Jai and he was dead in a heartbeat.
Immortals

Book I of 'The Domus' Series'



Prologue

The Jihadi
Kismayo
Southern Somalia
November 1995

‘One… Two… Three…’
Saiyad al Mahmud Abdi counted the seconds under his breath as he waited for the ninth.
He counted up to eight and then ducked, dropping on his right knee and then turned around, just in time for the 7.62/51 mm NATO round to whizz past his ear, missing the occiput of his skull, where it had hit him in his previous life. Abdi rolled further on to reach for cover behind the mangled and contorted metal of a derelict UN Toyota jeep. He took his position behind the jeep and took aim at the enemy rifle fire. The bullet that had missed him had, by now, given Abdi an estimate of its trajectory. The trajectory translated to the pock-marked, bullet-ridden facade of the erstwhile Radio Mogadishu station.
Abdi had an M40-A3 with him, a prized possession that he had taken from a dead US marine two years ago. He set his left eye to the crosshairs of the M40, and through it he could see the muzzle of the gun that had taken the shot at him.
It was still pointed in his general direction.
The enemy sniper was hiding in a window on the fifth floor of the Radio Mogadishu station. Abdi steadied his aim and waited for his moment. For a fleeting second, he could see the sniper’s head rising against the sill of the window when he had probably just shifted his weight to his other leg.
That was enough for Abdi. He took the shot. The rifle jolted on Abdi’s shoulders and the sound hung above his head. He saw the shell case, through the corner of his eye, drifting in slow motion on to the ground. Abdi’s eyes were still glued to the crosshairs of his M40. The enemy sniper’s gun tumbled down from the window and fell on the ledge jutting out of the floor below.
Abdi smiled, content, as he mentally pictured the brains of the sniper scattered around him in the room in the distant building.
He cursed and mumbled, ‘One infidel less to fight!’
Abdi was committed to fight the holy war, which the infidel wacals had brought to his door, his home, and his country. He had fought the war for Allah’s cause and had happily martyred himself the first time for the cause, two years ago.
But Allah had had other plans for him…
The benevolent Almighty had sent him back from his martyrdom. He had been to heaven, had bathed in the heavenly white, and then he had been sent back on the Earth to continue Allah’s fight.
The kind Allah had performed another of his miracles, and Allah be praised that he had bestowed on him the honour of so many martyrdoms in this holy war.
Urban wars could be tedious. Abdi knew that but patience was something he was not in short supply of.
He had been fighting this war for the past five years.
The intemperate rage of his youth had given way to a very balanced head on his capable shoulders. He was widely respected by his fellow fighters as a fearless and feared soldier of Allah. But he had never fought seeking that respect.
He truly believed in the cause.
He had been devout in his upbringing, being the son of a pious Islamic cleric who had preached and practised surrender to Allah’s wishes and His ways in order to attain salvation, to attain the proximity of Allahtallah Himself, to attain the fruits of Jannat, the paradise. He had educated his kids about the corrupt and heathen ways of the white men, and had filled them with a lifelong contempt of the enemies of Allah.
Abdi had risen from being a mere soldier to become now the commander of a sizeable Jundullah – an army of the Almighty’s soldiers. Abdi was himself a very wise and learned man and his hours off the battlefield were spent in prayer and meditation. His true self was reflected on the battlefield and he was quiet, unassuming, generally reserved in his demeanour, traits that complemented his dynamism, quick-footedness, wisdom, and patience on the battlefield. He believed that Allah had helped him achieve whatever he had. It had been Allah’s will and Allah’s gift, and he was just the means.
On that particular day, he and his troops had been engaged in a routine patrol of the northern parts of the territory held by the UIC (Union of Islamic Courts) when they had come under sudden sniper attack in the rundown urban landscape of Kismayo. He had already lost five soldiers in the surprise attack and the rest of his troops had splintered from the group and had taken refuge behind the rubble of the erstwhile bustling city, still under the sweep of sniper guns from higher up in the buildings.
Abdi had taken two of the snipers down but it had cost him two of his lives. He had heard of the proverbial cat having nine lives. By the blessings of Allah, he had had many more than that. Abdi had no illusions of immortality, but he had no idea of how many more lives he was going to have. It was for Allah to decide, and therefore he never worried about it much.
Each time he had died in this holy war, he had come back to life awakened from his previous sleep, generally a few hours ago in time, refreshed and undead. The time that he gained varied from minutes to hours depending on when he had slept before the time of his death. All that time was for him to spend again in any way he wished to, to learn from and to undo his previous mistakes. It was like a cassette rewinding and replaying all over again but unlike the cassette repeating the same melody over and over again, Abdi had a say on how the re-lived hours played out the second time.
A lesser, faithless mortal, a kaffir, would have gotten crazy to understand why it happened, the thing that happened to him. A lesser mortal would have usurped territory and amassed wealth, using the power of the gift; but not Abdi – he was no kaffir. He understood it as one of the many bountiful miracles of Allah and that understanding just pushed him deeper into his faith and deeper into the holy war, which he believed was the purpose of the gift with which he had been bestowed.
He understood that his duty was to thank Allah for considering him fit to receive his bounty, and therefore it was his sacred duty to dedicate all of his many lives in the Almighty’s service and sacrifice.
There was not a moment that he did not think about what was known to him and him alone.
Right then, on the battlefront, he knew that he would have to expose himself from his cover and take yet another bullet to expose and kill possibly the last sniper.
He would have to die another death, then get up from sleep, back again in his camp that morning, and play out the day to reach the point where he had got shot, and then armed with the foreknowledge of the shot’s direction and time, try to not get shot, and in the process get to kill yet another infidel.
He stepped out from his refuge into the open, his legs wide apart and raised his hands to heaven.
‘Allahu Ak…’
The first bullet struck him in his neck before he could finish the holy incantation.
The next one slammed right into his gut.
Abdi made a mental note of the direction of the bullets, and counted the seconds that had passed since he left his cover from behind the jeep until the first bullet that hit him.

There was a faint smile on his lips as he fell to the ground, committing the details to his dying memory, a memory that he was soon going to put to good use.

Thursday, May 28, 2015

The Science of Being and Becoming




In the last post (Genesis of Dogma), I talked about how an intimate knowledge of the reality by the masses is perceived to be dangerous. The knowledge of life's irrelevance is unsettling and this knowledge would let lots to lose respect for it. This disregard for the sanctity of life would lead to a reign of chaos in the society and humanity would be in the dark ages in a matter of decades if not years.

'Honesty is nothing but lack of opportunity'. The same holds true about Morality. Our morality, our sense of good and evil and an innate compunction to stay true on the righteous path is only a reaction to assuage a fear of supernatural retribution. It has been drilled into us that 'we shall reap what we sow', that 'the Judgement day awaits all of us' and so on and so forth. Was it necessary to spin this yarn of untruth to keep us humans from going berserk?

I agree that the burden of realization of this bitter truth about 'accidental life' is a heavy one. It is disconcerting to say the least and the more I think about the lack of meaning of it all, the more depressing it becomes. But, a significant minority of us would perhaps react to this knowledge in a very different way. There would dawn a realization within them that there never has been any worthwhile criticism of depravity. All this talk of divine recrimination was just that, only talk. There is no horned-tailed Satan burning their behinds in fires of hell if they sully their non-existent 'soul' in a gratifying muck of turpitude and corruption. The world would be theirs for the talking, might and bullets doing their bidding for them. Their would be robberies, murders, financial scams (we don't have any less of them anyways largely because they fall in a grey area as far as personal morality is concerned). There would be cases of sexual violence and moral turpitude in every house.

The fear of God keeps people from being criminal sociopaths and probably keeps order on our roads more than any number of police force put together can.

Does this mean that it was necessary to spin this yarn about God, Soul, Judgement Day, Creationism, Magic, Miracle etc? Was it necessary to bury the simple message of love preached by past and present prophets (human beings who saw the malaise in the world and dared to speak against them, who dared to spread a message of love and tolerance and right conduct) in layers of dictates and dogmas? Was it necessary to elevate them to status of Gods and demi-Gods and to actively coerce and cajole people to follow in their paths? Most of the so-called religions of the world are nothing but matters of opinion and rules read out from a book. People forget the seers and prophets and remember only their sayings; half of which haven't actually been said by them. Guardians of these 'opinions' forget that at the heart of every prophet's sayings is a message of love and one of inspiring people to exalt in their 'being and becoming'.

Instead of teaching people to follow a rule-book and punishing and persecuting those who do not, it could have been about developing a scientific temper. It could all have been about having the curiosity to learn from our surroundings and about nurturing nature and our fellow creatures. The burden of having developed intelligence is having a responsibility to safeguard a future for all.

I hope that in an alternate Universe, people have been different. They have had open minds to experiment and accept facts presented by science. I hope that they haven't persecuted the scientists amongst them and haven't thwarted knowledge with dogma. I hope that they haven't had the need to invent God in their lives. I hope they have realized that there can be happiness in pursuit of science and art in their daily lives and that it could in fact be richer for it.

I see people complaining about science and all the miseries it has brought upon us. Science has been blamed for pollution , environment, depleted resources, cancer, obesity and almost every other ill visited upon us. We forget that if not for science we would still be in dark ages with a life-span of thirty and odd years (no chance of getting fat or cancerous if you are going to die at 33). No point in blaming science for all the flab you accumulate plonking your ass on a easy-chair, gobbling soda and fries in front of your telly. No point in blaming science for getting a cancer if you continue to indulge in booze and smoke knowing full well that science was asking you to stay away from it.

No point in blaming science for the environment if you do not heed the warning signs that have been blaring loud for decades, choosing to be in denial to serve your narrow and wasteful ends.

Adhering to scientific principles in our daily lives and drawing inspiration from the lives of our past and present prophets, discarding their rule-books and looking beyond the shroud of dogmatic magic and perplexing miracles that has been draped over them by self-serving middlemen, can still bring hope into our doomed lives and possibly prevent our future generations from the path of destruction we have set them upon even before they have set foot on this Earth. We should shun religion as it is practiced today which serves only for a plutocratic control of society at large. We should embrace religion as a means to 'being and becoming' in order to further our true well-being. Eating healthy, keeping standards of hygiene, pursuit of knowledge,, trying to uplift ourselves, our families and the lives of people around us are all examples of religion working for us rather than we slaving in front of a book of doctrines.

I will end this series of posts today and delve hereafter into individual posts about things which are currently keeping me excited form the worlds of science,sci-fi, arts, medicine etc...

Monday, May 25, 2015

Genesis of Dogma

In the last post I talked about the irrelevance of life in the grand scheme of things. I cannot deny that it is a simplistic and a very nihilistic view of things. What are the consequences of undermining the importance of life? It takes a certain level of awareness of one's surroundings to able to appreciate the implications of this understanding. Not only was the origin of life an accident, but by extrapolation each and every life is just the continuation of a chain of events that started with that very first accident. We are all carrying the burden of our accidental origins. If our origin is an accident, so would be our demise. Our lives are as ephemeral as the lighting up of a bulb. There was nothing before that and there will be none after the bulb is switched off.


Life starts when a pair of replicating live cells fuse with each other and form a full complement of genetics for that particular species, continuing to replicate and aggregate as per the genetic mandate of that species, which in turn has evolved under three and a half billion years of evolutionary pressure. So, we are all the products of that initial spark which ignited the proto-molecules in the primordial Earth soup. It is easy to deduce from these observations that we need not accord any special sanctity to the beginning of a life. 







The idea of a soul that is captured within an embryo developing in a womb is pure humbug to me. The foolhardy idea that souls exist in human beings and not in animals is preposterous and exposes the lie further.









That consciousness is a mere biological consequence of growth and development of a brain is not very difficult to understand if we follow the train of logic detailed above. It should therefore be not surprising that the human level of sentience is directly proportional to the brain body ratio. Our ability to feel and reason is what sets us apart from other lower forms of life and that is a direct consequence of our bigger brains. This organic explanation of our sentience and our conscience should be proof enough against any invocation of magic and fantasm to explain our evolution accorded abilities.



Are there social implications of this understanding? I am afraid that the high and mighty ruling over us think so. These simple logical truths have been buried under centuries of half-truths, scare-mongering and rote-religious dogmas. These dogmas have been viciously guarded throughout the centuries by hounding and persecuting those who have tried dispelling the shrouds of these untruths. 

What is the most effective way of obfuscating these simple truths?

Invent the idea of a soul, invent the idea of heaven and hell and of judgement and consequence.



How to make people fall in line and make them acquiescing of these dogmas zealously? 





Invent the idea of a supreme authority, of religion and of an all powerful omniscient God. Make this God the guardian of human virtues and make him the arbiter of right and wrong. Let edicts set forth from this God which would cloud human judgement and blinker his judgement for centuries to come. 

There would be people who would resist and desist following these dogmas. Such would be dealt with by meting exemplary punishments to them. Rhazes was blinded, Galileo was put under house arrest, Copernicus made to renounce his science as heretical, Bruno burnt at the stake - the list goes on and on.

What were these zealots afraid of? Was it a fear of losing influence or of being rendered irrelevant? Or was it for a perceived good of the society? What are the dangers of realization? Could it lead to a collapse of order and civilization?

Perhaps therein lies the greatest danger of atheism. The realization of being quick and dead in death is unnerving and depressing. The eighty or so years of life is all there is to it. There is no before and there is no after. Eons that have gone and eons to come are irrelevant because I won't be there. None who are here would be there. It doesn't mean anything at all. It is a depressing scenario. It robs us of the incentive to be fair and good. We will be good because we fear the law, not because there are compelling consequences like a cauldron of boiling oil in hell after our death. All life loses its sanctity.

LIFE loses its sanctity - that is a recipe for anarchy, depredation and hegemony in society. It would be jungle raj where might is right and there are kings and slaves (though there were that for most of human civilization and there are those who go by different names now). There would not be any sense of belonging and there would be no respect for other's belongings. This lack of fraternal respect would bring all humanity to a grind.

Maybe it is good that someone had a stroke of genius to invent God.



Maybe it is good that a majority of humans abide by a set of morals; morals that are ingrained in their minds by a fear of consequences in the afterlife, a fear of failing oneself on the judgement day, an overwhelming dread of sullying their pristine souls.

Is there no other way out?

I think there was a way out... (to be continued)

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Saturday, May 23, 2015

The Life-span of Life...

Is life important? Maybe it is to you and me but I was asking a more general question. Is life in any form important at all, other than to those bearing it?


What has been the life-span of life on Earth? Roughly three and a half billion years. The Earth had existed a billion years without it. Before that, there was a just a large gas cloud composed of trillions and trillions of microscopic dust particles that coalesced to form the Sun and the Solar System. Before that for at least 9 billion years the Universe had existed without life as we know it (that's almost twice as long as life has existed here on Earth).

SO, it is clear that Universe did not need life in any fundamental sense.

That brings us to the next question: Is life of any import at all?

There was matter, there was gas, there was water and this primordial soup, this primordial broth somehow got ignited (possible by an errant and a very naughty lightning strike). Complex molecules, possibly lipids (fats, oils) formed in this primordial soup and they organized themselves into tiny spheres due to their surface tension. More molecules aggregated together and reacted to form a preliminary metabolic unit. The biggest kicker came when these particles arranged themselves in a manner that allowed them to replicate.

These 'non-living' replicating assembly of complex molecules was the precursor of all life on Earth today. I know there are people who would tie a pillow over their heads and shove it in their behinds on hearing it, but I do need to mention the 'E-word' here. SO, here goes... Then E-Evolution happened. The process which transformed that single replicating quasi-life molecule into the 'mighty and yet fallible' dinosaurs and which in turn evolved into the 'shitty and sure to fall in future' humans.



But while it is all too complex to grapple with for some simple in the head pseudo-religious creation-espousing gouchos, it simple doesn't matter in the end. Because IT doesn't give a shit. Because wish as hard as we may and hallucinate all we can about all the ETs and UFOs out there, we are either alone in this whole wide Universe or we are never meant to find out otherwise (which actually means the same thing). Enunciated very eloquently by Fermi and Hart is a very simple question at the crux of the matter
'Where are they?'
Also known as the 'silentium universi' or 'The Great Silence',  it asks that if alien life exists in the Universe, Where the f*#k is it? Why has it not contacted us yet? Surely, many might have lived much longer than us and have had eons to evolve and conquer the problems of interstellar travel. So, why are they not knocking on our doors? There can be many wishful answers but the most pragmatic and uninteresting killjoy of an answer remains the one we choose to comfortably ignore (call it a case of selective dyslexia) - there is no one out there. We are all there is to it. Or that the spatial and temporal distances involved are sadly insurmountable and we may never meet our distant cousins on a different Earth revolving around a different Sun.

What an awful waste of space and time in Universe if we are the only ones in it? That's a pretentious question. IT simply doesn't give a shit. The life that started three and a half billion years ago will simply go out in another four billion years (it would probably be much sooner than that) when the Sun, in its death throes engulfs all the inner planets within its expanding self.

We might evolve enough to leave Earth and sail away in a generational ship with life extenders for a habitable planet far far away. Then we would be 'them'. We would become the aliens.

The downshot of all this is that life in a broader sense is not special. I and you do not and will not contribute to change anything. We started as a freak sideshow and long after we are gone, no one will be the wiser that we ever existed.


How bleak and how boring?
How depressing is that? The truth tends to be that away...bitter and boring.

So, let us liven up things a bit. Throw in a soul, throw in a few afterlife variants, throw in the concept of redemption and a Judgement Day and last but not the least throw in a 'fanatstique GOD' and we make things a lot more interesting for us.

That also gives us hope, morality and discipline and justice... (I will elaborate soon)

Bye for now

P.S - I am an atheist who believes in the necessity of religion.

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Friday, May 22, 2015

Our Story So Far...

I am frequently beseeched with a question about our relevance in the grand scheme of things. The grand scheme, as we understand it today started some 13.6 billion years ago. It is impossible to imagine all the matter and energy that we see in the Universe compressed into a space smaller than a pinhead but that was how it was initially before it all went KABOOM!!!

THE BIG BANG happened, the pinhead 'exploded' and everything came into being. The being and becoming started at that moment, as did distance, direction and time. Since time started at that moment, it is foolhardy to ask what was there before it. 

There was no time before that. So, the concept of before and after doesn't arise. The same goes for space. Since there was no space before this seminal event, it is a stupid question to ask what was there outside of this clusterjammed pinhead. Space was born in The Big Bang and therefore there was no outside or inside of the pinhead before The Big Bang.


Science is uncovering hints to that question of 'before Big Bang' but the hints are actually just faint and uncertain glimpses through the thick haze of 'Big Bang'. So it is all too soon to talk about that now.

Matter and energy spread slowly across the length and breadth of the Universe as we see it today, the energy and the velocity at the beginning just right enough to allow gravity to weave its magic. Gravity, the weakest of the fundamental forces is perhaps the most important force on a cosmic scale. this force of attraction between particles drawing atoms together to build gas clouds which clustered and compressed together to give birth to the first stars of the Universe.

The moment of starbirth is one akin to firing a gaslight. The intense pressure of compression smashes together Hydrogen atoms, which fuse to form Helium, setting in motion gargantuan Nuclear Fusion furnaces that keep a star burning for a few billion years. Stars eventually burn out their fuel of hydrogen, whence fusion of helium into heavier atoms occurs, the process going on and on till all the elements in the periodic table till Iron accumulate within the star. 

When there is nothing left to burn, larger stars give up their lives in a cataclysmic disruption called 'The Supernova'. It sheds all these elements across space. It is hard to imagine but every shard of metal, every atom of carbon within us and in fact every thing we touch and breathe and feel was born within a star and dissipated across space and time by a Supernova. We are all 'Children of the Stars' and that is where we will go into ultimately. That will be our final 'resting place', our fiery cauldron within the Fusion furnace belly of a star.

























All that material strewn across a newborn star slowly collects in accretion disks around that star forming all the planets, the moons, the asteroids, the comets and the umpteen other things that go into making a star system. Stars are gathered together by gravity into galaxies, galaxies form clusters, which form superclusters, which in turn forms the physical fabric of the Universe. A hundred billion stars make a galaxy and a hundred billion of them make a Universe.



So, where does that leave us? Us, surrounding a thoroughly unremarkable star in an equally unremarkable corner of the Universe. Why did we happen to be here?

This is where theism drags in GOD and all hell breaks loose...

(to be continued...)

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